Ahem
So. The rest of the world, outside of my bubble of reality, well it sucks.
How can we turn a blind eye to such a huge issue? How is hunger not dinner table discussion every single night?
Are we so numb to the horrors that have developed in this world that we will accept it as a part of someone else’s life?
Are we so greedy ourselves that our first thought for the guy on the commercial holding up the poverty stricken child is that he must be trying to steal our money? Like he has some intention of pocketing it?
I’m ashamed to say it, but I’ve only had my first semi-real look at poverty in the last few months. I’m sixteen years old and I had no idea just how bad things were EVERYWHERE ELSE.
So look at what that says about this nation. Say fuck anytime you want because apparently compassion is the new curse word.
Anyways, this post was supposed to be about the fact that I think I want to be a traveling surgeon who goes all over and does everything possible for free. I want to know what it is to be hungry. I want to give my all for Christ’s children. I want to give more than all that I have because that is nowhere near enough.
To do that, at the moment, I need to get into med school. Which means I need to get out of college debt free. Which means I need a scholarship. Which means I need amazing PSAT scores and awesome grades. Which means…that I need to learn pre-calculus and physics. How is it that it comes down to my future as I see it depending on my ability to do pre-calculus? I hate pre-calc.
Part of me just wants Jesus to return now so I can finally know, finally see Him, finally end all questions and worries. The other part of me wants to offer my life first. To give what I am given first.
How is it that I always seem to miss the most obvious things because I ignore them and try to tackle the big stuff?
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